Finally found someone I feel comfortable with.
Finally found someone who loves me unconditionally.
Finally having some colors in my dull life.
I'm really a lucky guy for winning over her heart. The times talking to her really opened me up and I'm really happy. The feeling of being loved, to be cared for, to be given her time and to be given her many priceless gifts really makes me really happy but at the same time allows me to question myself why I deserved such love or did I really deserve it. Self-insecurity really hurts. Her constant reassurances are the only thing that really kept me going and I really love her. I've found that special someone who I can sacrifice for and give up many factors for.
All I think about is her all day, wanting to touch her lips all days, wanting to give her the best she'll ever have.
She helps me to strive to be a better person and I promise I'll never treat her like other guys in her past.
She's the one, my first and last and I intend to keep it that way.
May this be carved in stone and the cosmos forever.
Tuesday 29 March 2016
Sunday 31 January 2016
Monday 25 January 2016
Am I Going To Waste The Past One Year?
What would I do if I don't make it.
Am I going to waste one more year and be looked down upon?
Selections are coming to a close and I want it so bloody bad.
But what if I'm just not good enough?
What if I screw up?
"Main team or not we're all brothers, equal and always a team" bullshit.
You know yourself you don't mean it. "Now just defend our spot. Don't let people like them spoil the boat"
Let's hope it all pays off. I wouldn't say I'm the strongest or I've sacrificed the most.
But I've definitely worked harder and fucking deserve it more.
Call me selfish, self-centred, narcissistic or whatever it is.
I've reached the point where I'll do whatever it takes to enter.
Am I going to waste one more year and be looked down upon?
Selections are coming to a close and I want it so bloody bad.
But what if I'm just not good enough?
What if I screw up?
"Main team or not we're all brothers, equal and always a team" bullshit.
You know yourself you don't mean it. "Now just defend our spot. Don't let people like them spoil the boat"
Let's hope it all pays off. I wouldn't say I'm the strongest or I've sacrificed the most.
But I've definitely worked harder and fucking deserve it more.
Call me selfish, self-centred, narcissistic or whatever it is.
I've reached the point where I'll do whatever it takes to enter.
Thursday 31 December 2015
2016
Another year has passed.
This year went by really, really fast. It really just sets you thinking about aging and how fast life would end.
2015 had its ups and downs. From the people I've met, to the decisions I've made, it was definitely the most colourful year of my life.
Like every start of the year, we all set goals and aspirations we want to achieve. Well, it's always the same old things we want to achieve: results, love or getting something we want. I mean there's nothing else we really can hope for. We always want to satisfy our human desires first followed by the expectations we expect or are expected of.
For me, in 2016, I do have a personal goal I want to achieve. It's a goal I've been working hard on for awhile. I either make it or break it. I really want it bad. Fucking bad.
Aside from that, like always, ACADEMIC RESULTS.
The health of those around me as well as myself to be great. That is something I want to achieve. I recently found out the importance of being healthy by learning the hard way. Negligence and arrogance kills.
Tangible things become less important and desired as the age adds up. It could be a sign of maturity or possibly just the harsh reality that you can't have everything you ask for in life.
Intangible things are what makes us human. It's going to sound really mushy if I talk about it but it essentially is the emotions, memories, love, beliefs, opinions etc.
(Abstract concepts and imaginary creatures and characters??!!)
Let this year be a good year.
Let it be an eye-opener.
Let it be memorable.
Let it surpass the past.
This year went by really, really fast. It really just sets you thinking about aging and how fast life would end.
2015 had its ups and downs. From the people I've met, to the decisions I've made, it was definitely the most colourful year of my life.
Like every start of the year, we all set goals and aspirations we want to achieve. Well, it's always the same old things we want to achieve: results, love or getting something we want. I mean there's nothing else we really can hope for. We always want to satisfy our human desires first followed by the expectations we expect or are expected of.
For me, in 2016, I do have a personal goal I want to achieve. It's a goal I've been working hard on for awhile. I either make it or break it. I really want it bad. Fucking bad.
Aside from that, like always, ACADEMIC RESULTS.
The health of those around me as well as myself to be great. That is something I want to achieve. I recently found out the importance of being healthy by learning the hard way. Negligence and arrogance kills.
Tangible things become less important and desired as the age adds up. It could be a sign of maturity or possibly just the harsh reality that you can't have everything you ask for in life.
Intangible things are what makes us human. It's going to sound really mushy if I talk about it but it essentially is the emotions, memories, love, beliefs, opinions etc.
(Abstract concepts and imaginary creatures and characters??!!)
Let this year be a good year.
Let it be an eye-opener.
Let it be memorable.
Let it surpass the past.
Wednesday 30 December 2015
Demise
"There is
something
mystically
sad
and beautiful
about
how
I will
never
see you
again
(or have you)
but
meet you
again
and again
in poetry."
-Sanober Khan
School's starting on Monday.
How dreadful.
Facing (certain) people.
Someone recruit me into Quileute Tribe, please.
something
mystically
sad
and beautiful
about
how
I will
never
see you
again
(or have you)
but
meet you
again
and again
in poetry."
-Sanober Khan
School's starting on Monday.
How dreadful.
Facing (certain) people.
Someone recruit me into Quileute Tribe, please.
Saturday 26 December 2015
Health is not valued till sickness comes.
Health is vital to me.
Falling sick has TOO MANY setbacks.
Less training, less appetite, loss in size, loss in strength.
I can't afford to keep falling sick anymore.
Not in this period of time.
Selections have begun.
Falling sick has TOO MANY setbacks.
Less training, less appetite, loss in size, loss in strength.
I can't afford to keep falling sick anymore.
Not in this period of time.
Selections have begun.
Friday 18 December 2015
Fatigue makes cowards of us all
With the increased training intensity, the fatigue setting in is intense.
Gymming is a drag.
Waking up is a drag.
But nothing worth having comes easy.
I have to wake up my idea.
When I'm here slacking and resting, someone else is out there working harder than me and reaping the fruits of hard work.
I want my seat.
I don't want anyone to steal it from me.
Time to work harder.
He wakes up at 6, I'll wake up at 5.
He puts 2 plates, I put 3 plates.
Time to make it all worth it.
Gymming is a drag.
Waking up is a drag.
But nothing worth having comes easy.
I have to wake up my idea.
When I'm here slacking and resting, someone else is out there working harder than me and reaping the fruits of hard work.
I want my seat.
I don't want anyone to steal it from me.
Time to work harder.
He wakes up at 6, I'll wake up at 5.
He puts 2 plates, I put 3 plates.
Time to make it all worth it.
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